Saturday, July 25, 2020

Growing old together...

I’m now in Penang staying in my hotel room when everyone is out chilling and enjoying the weekend.  I feel that I have changed. Changed to a person who loves myself slightly more.
The usual me should be joining the chill out and comes back tired and late. Now I rather be doing facial mask, chilling in my bed watching my current favourite HK drama series 爱回家!

After our MC two years back we were emotionally broken. 
Now we do talk about it to people who are close to us. 
They share their experience and recommend doctors and health care methods. Blessed ❤️
I slowly learned that my lifestyle is unhealthy. And to be a more responsible mom to be I must take care of my own health. I’m still learning and practicing. No alcohol and rest well. Stress less and bother less. Sometimes I should just mind my own business 😜

Finding a soulmate to grow old together is not easy.
If you found a someone who cares, loves and be patient in you every way you should indeed feel blessed and be grateful. 
My mom and dad sometimes do argue for the sillies stuff but they are caring to each other in many different ways. Today seeing them still lovingly holding each other hand in hand crossing the road after our dinner makes me feel ❤️.

Love is just simple. As simple as just being contented with the things we have and being around with the person we love. 

We tag along this trip to company the old folks worrying that they need to drive long distance. 
We ended up joining our brother from another mothers proposal. 😜 simple yet romantic. Wishing them a lifetime happiness and may they both live happily every after. 

My hubby is out enjoying. Not that he doesn’t love me. But sometimes it’s good to have a little me time. He woke up 6.45am to watch the sunrise with me. And he sat there 10min holding the time lapse camera to catch the sunrise. He is indeed a loving hubby. Sweet and caring in his own way. ❤️Thank you and love u for caring and spoiling me in every way. I don’t remember if u asked me out first or I did. But even if I have to choose again, I will ask u out if u didn’t. 😜 Cheers to growing old together... Hope to have a mini us soon... 🙏🏻

Love AJ ❤️ 

Wednesday, April 24, 2019

The Orange Cats...

I once had a cat which was not owned by me. It was a stray cat in my moms office. It was a square face male stray cat. Orange in color. They say cat has nine lives. Staying in a fruit distributor factory back then. He was exposed to danger of falling boxes, wood pallet falling on to him, die of hunger, hit by car or lorries etc...

Back then when life was simple, I spend my time longing that he will come by me and let me stroke him or give him some love. I spend most of my time in the factory during holidays and after School as mom is always busy working. It really had a funny distorted kind of square face. too bad technology was not as advance back then I didn't have a picture of him.

That kitty had a tough life. he had a pallet fall on his tail and the tail broke. But this did not stop him from living. surviving that life went on. Until one day, he got run over by a lorry during his noon nap. We heard him and we ran and look at him. He struggle in pain as the tyre ran over his tiny body. bone crushed. Vomited blood and the passed away... in pain. it broke my heart.

During that time my brother and I were young. We took matter in our hand and decided we bring him home and bury him back home at our back garden. Our house was half gated. Few weeks after buring him. Some stray dog dug him out. :(

And we got scolded for bringing his body back home. hahaha. life was simple. It was just pure love for a square face orange kitty.

Six years ago we adopted a pair of kitties. Brother and sister. We name the male one Banana and the female one Banini. They were both very cute and loving kitties. They showered us with unconditional love. Every morning and night. Hopping into my lap and laying by you when you are busy with chores.

Many say they are lucky as they are stray cats and adopted by us. Me on the other hand felt differently. I'm thankful they came into my life and bring colors into my life. caring for us daily. Silly.  How can cat care about u? Wrong. they only have to sit next to you when u need them. Fur ball filled with love.

Today 24 April 2019. I had a call from the vet. We had to put Banana into Vet yesterday as he have not been eating. Dr says he had seizure, his retina turn big and small. It seems like he is waiting for his parents to come by to see him before he leave. We rushed to the vet. They wrap him up in bubble wrap and cloth and put warm water bag on him as his temperature start falling. His eyes was open but he is unconscious. There was a needle on his nose which the doctor say they resurrected him as he nearly died before we reached.

I sat there crying and staying by him seeing him suffer. The doctor tried giving positive options but deep in him he knows its not positive. They put him on drip with oxygen. Every other minute when he hears sound his body shudders. Like in shock. Hubby saw him and left for work for an hour.

Doctor came in suggesting maybe if we would like to put him to sleep. Its a hard decision to make. They say its better than seeing him in pain. At first I didn't know how much pain he is going through until I see him start to have short seizure reaction and started vomiting white bubble. Hubby was on the way back from work to the vet and his other dad was on the way from work to see him too.

Before they both reached, little kitty had his last breath. His eyes did not close. Maybe it was due to brain damage his eyes was not able to close. But I know he is a little Tiger. He didn't wanted to leave us. He left without taking any medicine putting him to sleep.

I told my husband, the kitty love us so much he didn't wanted us to make such a hard decision. He left. May he go to kitty heaven and be at a better place with no more suffer. We were both heart broken. Both of us decided to bring him home and bury home. We guessed he wanna stay close to us. This round home is fully gated, no more stray dogs digging bodies. I had a friend who came by to accompany me go through this process. I believed she is sad to as she was crying like I do. both heart broken. She is a cat lover. Thank you very much I can't express my gratitude for what you have done.

Going thru this process makes me awake and be more aware of how I have always taking things for granted for the people and pets that love me. I will learn and make changes in my life to make it better. thank you for being in my life little tiger! you are a fighter!

My dear kitty. Mommy daddy love you.

May you rest in peace...

Wednesday, December 5, 2018

10 things to do for December 2018


Merry Christmas!

10 things I want to do this December
1. Rest from social media for one month
2. Learn to love myself more
3. Spend time reading
4. Make time for family
5. Think less
6. Give more
7. Spend less
8. Pray more
9. Let go of negativity
10. Smile more

Love, Aj

Friday, November 30, 2018

30th Nov 2018

说很想请你吃饭的人很多,
但愿意为你做饭的人却很少,
说希望你快乐的人很多,
但舍得花时间给你的人却很少,
说喜欢你的人很多,
但最后留在你身边的却没几个,
所以,有些人说对你好,只是说说而已,
等他真的做到了,在相信也来得及,
甜言蜜语再动听, 都不够实际行动更长情。

一禅小和尚 哈哈哈

Aj ❤️

Tuesday, September 11, 2018

10 Sept 2018

A day when a heart got broken so bad it's hard to put them back into one.
A day when you want to stay in whole day.
A day when u think no matter what you do it won't fix it.
A day when u still smile and pretend everything is ok.
A day when you are gone, maybe to a better place.
A day when he held my hand and tell me everything will be fine.
A day when u just stand by me.
A day I love and loved.

Aj

Sunday, March 4, 2018

We fall in love...

We do fall in love...
I fall in love with the bags and the shoes
And definitely the diamonds 😝
I’m going to get u soon ❤️
Women’s never will have  enough shoes or bags.
Men will just have to understand that fact 🤗

Love,
Aj

Prayers

It’s a yearly culture for me to company my mom for prayers. Wake up 6am today. Sent the kids to school the off we leave to Ipoh. I looks forward to meeting this old Aunty in the temple. She is one of the disciple in there. There is something in my heart that makes me love the elderly. When I reached today, the first person I saw was her. Still old and fragile, she have this smile on her face. As usual coz I’m married, I have and angpau to each of them for luck and health.

I wished the Aunty to stay healthy and happy. She smiled and got contented. She screen thru some books and then she came to me. Asked me did u study Chinese or English school. I told her English. She held the book and thought a while then maybe she decided it would be not appropriate to hand me that book. She said “ Aunty with Leong Leong 39 years d, I’m 89 this year. The most important is to learn how to open your heart. Learn to open your heart then you will stay happy” then she walked off with the book still in her hand. I asked my mom “mom would she have given me the book if I say I studied Chinese” we just smile and shrugged. 

I feel blessed somehow, as i feel inspired meeting people that indirectly change my mindset. Or somehow remind me of how simple things that can make my life a little brighter. May god bless Aunty with good health and happiness. ❤️

Prayers went fine. Some comment were quite true. There are just some things are meant to be kept hidden in my heart. 

❤️